Feelings, nothing more than feelings...

Bishop was very chatty yesterday. He is discovering his voice and how to use it. He squeals with excitement, and has learned that not only does it make different sounds, it has different volumes. He can be quiet just talking to his hands as he watches them open and close. He intensely watches his wrists move back and forth and squeals in delight as he watches his hands pick up toys and bring them up to his face so he can get a closer examination of them. Then he tosses his hands back, and usually the toy with them, and squeals loudly. If I walk away out of the room, he makes a hollow "Ah" sound loudly to see if I respond. Usually I will call his name from the other room so he knows that I can hear him. I am trying to encourage his communication. I talk and coo right along with him. I play music games and sing him to sleep in the evening.

Bishop is different from Lucas in that way. Lucas never liked it when I would sing him to sleep. He would cry louder as soon as I started so I stopped after a couple of nights. But I do constantly talk to Lucas. Lucas is learning about emotions. We try to encourage him to tell us how he feels. You know...I am mad, sad, angry, happy, silly etc. I feel it is important for him to understand feelings. I grew up having to suppress my feelings. We weren't allowed to be upset or sad. Once my Dad said after I was upset about something that had happened at school "Why are you sad. You have no reason to be sad. You have a roof over your head and food to eat. Stop crying and cheer up." I grew up not really knowing how to explain my feelings so I try to be sure that my boys are in touch with them. They don't have to be guitar playing tree hugger or anything but just be able to understand their feelings.

Speaking of Lucas...Jason decided to shave Lucas' head. I can't believe Lucas let him but Jason and I checked and checked and asked and asked to be sure he was ready for this. And he wanted to shave his head. I will be posting the pics onto http://www.flickr.com/ for all to see. I just hope Jason's mom is able to talk to us again.

Last night, Tim posted pictures from the Rock Band party. I had a lot of fun hanging out with the girls. All of the girls said "You look good", knowing that I had gained a lot of weight with Bishop. It was all that bed rest....and sugar free chocolate, note to self sugar free is not calorie free. :D I had gotten my weight down before I got pregnant (which the doctor said may have been a big factor in me getting pregnant) but I gained 70lbs with my pregnancy. I have lost some of the weight and was pretty proud of myself, but last night all of my old feelings about my weight came flooding back. I look horrible in the pictures. My thighs and hips and tummy just look aweful. I need to work harder at my weight. I am at home all day and I play with the baby but unfortunately playing "Patty Cake" doesn't burn as many calories as I had hoped. I am going to start going for walks more. Bishop loves going for a walk in his stroller.

I think Bishop is getting another tooth in. I have noticed that he is fussier than usual and has been feeling really warm. Keep ya'll posted on the teeth. :)
Love ya'll.
hmmm....I feel like having sushi for lunch.