Big, Baby Steps.

I had lunch with Jason today. I picked him up and we went to Chipotle on Broadway across from the Witte. I love that part of town. I know it is high crime and all but the homes are old and beautiful and it just feels like an old town within the city. I love it. Anyway...

We were sitting at the table and talking and Bishop started to cry. I realized it was almost 2:00 and he still hadn't eaten lunch so I picked him up and began to feed him. Now I have been thinking lately that Bishop though a beautiful baby may not be up to speed on some of the skills that he should be learning. Afterall he HATES being on his tummy so I don't make him do it for very long um...ok not really at all :(. We are still working on getting him to sleep without crying for an hour, and lately he hasn't wanted to take naps during the day. He cries and coughs in his swing until I pick him up. Well today we had a breakthrough. :)

I was feeding him his bottle and talking to Jason and not really paying attention, when all of a sudden I looked down and he was holding his own bottle. I know it is such a small step but he was doing it all on his own. Jason and I looked at each other in amazement. I couldn't help it I started crying. It was so strange. I have never felt so proud in my life. Except for maybe the first time Lucas called me "Mom". I felt so happy and sad at the same time. Alot like when I found out I was pregnant. He looked up at me while he was holding that bottle and smiled with his big blue eyes. I could tell he was proud too. I love it.

Lucas has started showing some jealousy. Maybe not so much jealous but craving attention. I have to make a point to spend more time with him. he has taken an extra interest in his cars and he loves "The Cat in the Hat" and Curious George. And he especially likes Sid the Science Kid. I hope he takes to math and sciences. I always struggled with those subjects so I am lucky Jason is so good at them. Also he has his Uncle Josh to help him out too.

I am so proud of my boys and I know that they are going to grow up so fast. It amazes me that 6 months ago Bishop wasn't here. And 3 years ago Lucas wasn't a thought. Our family has changed so much and I know that it will only keep changing. I am not good with change but these are all good changes. And I know that soon the boys will be in school and then college and then getting married and having families of their own. Ok that was just more than I can handle. I need to go and get a tissue. I suddenly have an urge to watch "Fiddler on the Roof"
Better go... you know...Sunrise, Sunset.