I know it's been a while and well that's ok cus life happens. Here's what has happened:
I put Bam in daycare with his brother and I went out and found a job. I felt like there wasn't a reason to be home if Bishop and Lucas were both in school. After much searching and even ore rejection, I found a position as a Loan Closer for a large bank that deals mainly with military personnel. I was a contractor and was going through a 3rd party company. I loved my job even though it was SUPER stressful. There were days I would just cry because I was so stressed and felt like I wasn't getting it. I usually consider myself to be smart and calm. But I was feeling less like a cool and calm business woman and more like a crazy woman who was stupid to think she could ever be smart enough to go back to the business world without first having a job that required me to say "would you like fries with that". Having a baby changed me. Before Bishop entered my life, and my body, I was a cool calm manager. I could handle any situation, whip out spreadsheets in a moments notice, and could listen to people and help them find solutions. I was a good manager. I really was. Now I can hardly keep my thoughts together long enough to make a complete, and coherent, sentence. What is it that changes in us? One friend of mine called it a "Placental Bypass". "Unfortunately," she said "we never recover from it."
Anyway...I worked there for a couple of months. As I began to feel more and more capable of handling the work, and felt like I was really going to make it, it happened. Bishop got sick. And when I say sick, I mean the sickest and scariest it has ever been with either of my boys.
Last Tuesday I received a call that Bishop had a fever and I needed to pick him up from school. I would normally just call Jason to pick him up since he has been working from home but i knew that he was on a conference call and didn't know when he would be done. So I left work after only being there an hour, and went to pick up my baby. When I got to the school he was laying down, flushed and out of it. I took him home and gave him meds, and Pedialite. He slept with us that night and the next morning it felt like his fever had broken so I got ready for work, since Jason had decided to stay home with both boys. I left and got to work at 7:15. I caught up on emails, and looked over my workload for the week and had just begin to work when I received the scariest call I have ever gotten.
"Hello"
Jason: Hello babe, I think Bishop just had a seizure.
Me: WHAT?! What happened?
Jason: He woke up on fire, I changed him and took his temp, and it was like 104 so I got up to get him meds, and he put his arm up over his head all stiff, then he fell to the floor and started shaking. I picked him up and was calling his name and he was just staring off into space and rolling his eyes around. What do I do?
Me: It is 8:30 am there is lots of traffic no matter where you go Please call an ambulance and get him to a hospital.
Jason: Which one?!
Me: DOESN'T MATTER call an ambulance and get him to a hospital. I'm on my way.
Jason: Ok I'll go to the new one on 151.
Me: Fine I'm leaving now.
I told my boss briefly that I had to go and I ran as fast as I could in 5 inch heels. (A gift to myself for finally feeling good about my job)
I go to the hospital and my poor skinny boy was in a hospital gown, still kind of out of it and drinking some juice. He was totally out of it because he was so focused on watching Diego on Nick Jr. Yea we don't have cable so anytime he can see Diego on TV he is excited. And by excited I mean he ignores everyone and stares at the TV in an almost catatonic state. It's ok his dad gets the same look. :D
SO he is fine. It was a FEBRILE SEIZURE. He's fine but we were told that it could happen again. He should outgrow them but for now we have to be watchful. After much debate we decided that it was better for me to be home. Boys will stay in school but I need to be closer to them. Since my job was temporary anyway, I would just stay home and be a housewife not to be mistaken for stay at home mommy. I am volunteering at their school, also I clean the house and run errands. I keep everything running so that Jason can concentrate on his job. I can totally do this job no problem. And once we get some bills paid down then I plan on going back to school. So that is the plan for now. I'm able to be close to my kids, Jason is able to focus on his new job, and the boys get mommy time any time they need it. I like this job WAY better.
